Today, the largest piece of software I’ve ever written was pulled from its release for the second third time and I felt ashamed and embarrassed over completing my first year as a full-time web developer.
Thus concludes my first year as a full-time, front-end web developer. I’d love to say a started the year as a relatively, new developer and finished the year as completely badass but that wouldn’t be true. If I’m being honest with myself I’m probably the worst developer on my team and if I don’t put in a lot of effort in the next year it will probably tear me apart. I refuse to let it. So it’s time to learn from my mistakes.
“If we experience any failures or setbacks, we do not forget them because they offend our self-esteem. Instead we reflect on them deeply, trying to figure out what went wrong and discern whether there are any patterns to our mistakes.”
― Robert Greene,
It’s hard to honestly, assess my current skill level and determine what next best steps for me to take should be.
First and foremost, I only blame myself. I’m not sure where this word vomit is going to go but while I may mention why I think I’ve made the various decision to get this point and feeling, I fully believe that it’s my own fault and responsibility. With my hedging out of the way, let’s get it to the details.
Aside from helping a couple of my old coworkers out, I didn’t code for two months. This was a huge break for the newsletters, blog post and podcasts I was listening to before. For the first time ever I won my fantasy football league and read a handful of books.
I write all of this merely because I think my first year at Xero, my motivation pendulum swung the opposite direction…